sorry

throughout the days, i have changed your contact in my sim card, many times.

to bee. back to your name. to bee and back to your name again.

and today, i just changed it back to bee.

as long as i dont let you see it, i guess. you will not be angry.

i'm sorry for sending the msges abt me missing you and all.

and it got you upset again.

sighs. so from now onwards, i'll just speak my thoughts here.

but still, it's on this space, where i can call you baby.

Sighs.

baby, it doesn't matter if you dont love me. as long as i know i love you.

i love you. but i guess i will not make my feelings known to you, at least for now.

i rather keep it to myself.

even if i know, doing this will only hurt myself even more.

i dont want to let this heart, that loves you so much. ruin the friendship.

i know, if you know i havent been able to let go of you.

i know, if you know i still love you deeply,

you will leave my life immediately.

telling me it's for my own good.

i only wish that, in the future. in time to come, baby, you will not hate me. when you realise how much i love you.

i hope you will not hate me. for deceiving and putting up a false front in front of you.

yes it does hurt alot.

but baby, i guess it will not hurt as much as.

letting go of our love.

all i want to do,

is to stay by your side.